Lesley Kinzel (via curvesahead)
I will always reblog this because it is so so important.
I just want to nail this to every stable surface I can find. I cannot count the amount of times that I’ve seen fat folks being encouraged, cajoled, and even forced into behaviors that would be recognized as disordered eating/exercising patterns in thin folks.
Pretty much everything that’s done on shows like The Biggest Loser would be called out as pro-ana/pro-orthorexia in a thin person. Exercising past the point that it hurts, to the point where you’re throwing up, even injuring yourself? Berating yourself because you didn’t lose ENOUGH weight this week? Constantly talking about how fat is weakness and thinness will make everything better, about how you can’t stand to be your current weight anymore? Emphasis on weight as a sign of how much control, strength, and worth you have? Viewing food as bad, as a temptation to sin? Constant sharing and talking about tips on how to minimize food intake, how to lose weight?
That sounds exactly like every pro-ana/pro-mia blog I’ve ever seen. It’s also what fat people are told we need to be doing to ourselves until we’re thin.
I want you to imagine a ten year old version of yourself sitting right there on this couch. Now this is the little girl who first believed that she was fat, and ugly, and an embarrassment.
When you realise you don’t have a single true friend that you can always count on
Yup, just going to stay in this room and cry all day. I have so much bottled up and I just need to cry it out since I can’t talk to anyone.. Everyone has their own lives, their own problems and I’m just someone who you they just don’t put time and effort into anymore.. And that’s alright cause that’s how its always been with me. I’m interesting for a minute and invisible the next. I’m loved for a second and forgotten in an instant. And there’s so much I want to express but my mind is so scattered that I don’t know where to start. I just want to escape, I want to runaway. I hate feeling so alone, so depressed and mental.. I’m really not okay and not one person gives a flying fuck and here I am giving a shit bout everyone.. It’s not fair. It’s fucking wrong and I’m so fucking tired